Dreaming

So it is 7:30AM right now and I am pretty wide awake, even though it is so early, I am happy. Why? I just had the best dream ever, you know one of those dreams that just makes you feel wonderful when you wake up, no not that kind of dream you sex fiends. Well not quite. It was a dream that filled that void in my life, made me feel as if I was wrapped in a warm blanket, put a smile on my face, and gives me hope about my future.

So what was this wonderful dream? (sorry if it skips around but you know how dreams go)

It began as almost the narrative of a girl who was writing/wrote a book. She was well educated and was a writer by profession. She had dirty blond hair about shoulder length, kind of plain yet beautiful face, about 5'4, and an average body with slight womanly curves. She loved to take long runs in the morning just before the sun rose, and would narrate to herself on these long runs or just think out loud.

Now it appeared she and I were dating, probably not for long either because we still had that giddyness when we met, you know when two people are first dating and really like each other. That feeling that you never want to leave them and feel so nervous yet excited and happy when you are together.

It was around the holidays because she was at her parent's house even though she had her own home. Oh and she was married. WHAT??? No, I wasn't really cheating, she was married to a gay man, so that he could get insurance (not exactly sure how) even though that man had a significant other too. I know, I know, who has a dream like this. Oh yeah I think her name was Amy.

So I am dating a writer, who is married to a gay man, and has not told her parents yet that the marriage is kind of a farce and the man she is married to is gay. Oops did I not tell you that yet. So it is very awkward going over to her house during the holidays to see her. Her Dad even took me aside and had the whole, "What are your intentions for seeing her young man?" talk. I told him that we just had great conversation together, which was true, but not my intentions. Plus was kind of odd because I was over there when everyone was going to sleep. But when I entered her room we felt like teenagers because we left the light on, so as not to give away what we were really doing, which wasn't talking. Instead we were making out, well not so much as making out as giving light kisses to each other. Then I woke up.

Now most would say I woke up before the good part happened, I on the other hand feel differently. What I dreampt about is the one thing I want most in life. I want to feel close to someone whe feels the same way about me. I want to be able to have the latest kisses be just as exciting and nerve racking as the first kiss. I want that constant feeling that I am wrapped up in that warm blanket.